The best part of me is you

Guess whaaaaaaaat!?!

Today is the last day of February...THAT'S WHAT!

Yes, that is a very, very, very exciting thing to be saying; this means that I get my husband home soon, and I for one, cannot wait until I can lay in bed with him next to me again. So Megan came down Thursday and left today. It was great having her here. I'm pretty sure every other sentence out of our mouths was "I can't wait until my husband is home." and believe me, there couldn't be more truth in that statement. Besides that, all we could talk about was our husbands; the way they look, the way they talk, the things that we love and the distance that we hate. And with every word, I smiled. I smiled because my husband is my life. He's my world and before I met him I never thought it was even possible to love someone or to be loved be someone as much as I love him and the amazing love that he has for me.

On the one day that he told me not to expect a phone call, he called me<3 It was perfectly amazing waking up to that voice and seeing that number pop up on my phone. I'm telling you, even when he's not trying, that boy truly amazes me. haha I remember when him and I first started dating, I would go to school and tell my friend about him and literally the only adjective I could use to explain him was "amazing". That feeling has yet to fade; and I honestly, without a doubt, cannot ever see the day that I don't look at him as if he's the person that hung the moon, because in my eyes, he always will be.

Ohhhh lord, all of these mushy feelings....I love them. I love my husband, I love everything he is, everything he wants to be, all his dreams, all his hopes, I love who he makes me, who he makes me want to be. I love our life. Yeah, people probably think it's crazy to love a lifestyle that takes your husband away from you for 7+ months at a time...and yeah...it probably is. But I love our life because its OUR life and that means more than anything in this world to me. He is the best part of me.

Goodbye February, now onto my husband. Bring it March...I'm ready for you.

Mrs. Truelove<3

P.S. I love you.

I see you

I guess I should go ahead and apologize for the insane amount of  "mushiness" that comes with this blog. I absolutely love, hands down, no doubt about it, love mushy, lovey dovey things. Maybe it's because of the way my husband makes me feel; or maybe it's the way I feel about him; or possibly the way that I long for that feeling when he's gone for so many lonely nights. Whatever it is, I love it.


So I heard that angelic voice this morning. Of course, that's the most perfect way to start off your morning when you're 7000 miles away from the one person you want to wake up next to. It was nice to hear his voice, when I first answered I heard that smile in his voice..."heyy!" It melted my heart instantly. I wish I could put into words the happiness that man brings me even while he's 7000 miles away. Hearing him say "I love you baby" or "no you don't understand how much I miss you." makes all of the time that we have to spend apart worth every second.


It's pretty crazy how you can watch a movie or a television show and literally feel your insides hurting when you see a couple kiss, because you long so badly for that moment. I see you in those kisses. I see you in the empty spot lying beside me every morning when I wake up and every night when I toss and turn fighting to fall asleep. I see you in the sunrise and the sunset that I always loved to watch as I was wrapped in your arms. I see you in the ring upon my finger, the ring that I always touch just to feel a little closer to you. I see you in all of our photos on the wall, the ones that make this empty house feel a little more like a home. I see you at the empty spot when I'm eating supper. In the empty spaces between my fingers, that's where I see you, because that's where your fingers are meant to be. I see you in all of the quotes about love that I read, the ones about happiness too. Because with you, I know what true happiness is. I see you in the words truth, strength, courage, commitment, honor, HERO, because those are all the things that you stand for. 


I see you in all of these things, I see you in everything that surrounds me and I can feel you beside me through it all. You are my best friend. You are my strength and courage that has gotten me through this huge mountain that has been placed in front of us. I thank God for the gift of you every day and for the day that you will return to me and I will be able to see you, face to face again. I can't wait until that day. Until then, know that I am right here waiting for YOU just like I promised I would be. 


I see you in all of these things, but the one thing that I see you in the most...is me; because you've made me who I am today and you make me want to be a better me. For that, I am eternally grateful. 


I'll see you soon handsome. I love you, to the end of the Earth and back.

"You know how I know we're going to make it? Because I still wake up every morning and the first thing I want to do is see your face."                    - Gerry Kennedy; P.S. I love you

Dream a little dream of me

It's amazing how dreams can take your breath away in so many ways. The past three nights I have had continuous dreams about my husband, homecoming, and the undeniable passion that we share. These dreams feel so real; so right, so present as if he's right next to me. I can feel his skin, I can feel his kisses and see those beautiful brown eyes staring at me. That alone...takes my breath away. I get that feeling of happiness that he gives me when he's near me, just being in his presence makes me the happiest girl on the face of the Earth. And then, there's the other feeling of breathtaking. Not the one filled with butterflies and intense happiness. No, this breathtaking is the one where it feels like the wind has been knocked OUT of you. It's that moment when you wake up and reality hits you like a ton of bricks. He's not laying next to you, he's not holding you, you can't see those beautiful brown eyes and you still aren't even sure when that's going to happen. Yeah, that's the downside of these dreams. They feel all too real and then you wake up to your dreams being..well, just that..your dreams.


But it's these dreams and seeing my husbands gorgeous face for a split second, feeling that embrace that I long for every night, touching him, and holding him that keeps me going; knowing that no matter how I look at it, every time I wake up from those dreams, I am just a day closer to having that dream be my reality. And soon enough...well maybe not soon enough for my sanity...but soon enough I will have that reality and I will never let him go...ever. So until then, I'll pray that I see him in my dreams every night and I'll be right here waiting, just like I promised I would be.

"you want to know what happiness is? it's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. you turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. they breathe as though the weight of the world lies on anyone’s shoulder but their own. you smile, kiss their face in the gentlest manner so as not to wake them. you turn back around and involuntarily a grin forms on your own face. you feel an arm wrap around your waist, and you know it doesn't get any better than this."

Mrs. Truelove<3 

Love is not a fight

Love is not a place 

to come and go as we please 

It's a house we enter in 

then commit to never leave 

So lock the door behind you 

Throw away the key 

Work it out together 

Let it bring us to our knees 

Love is a shelter 

in a raging storm 

Love is peace 

in the middle of a war 

And if we try to leave; 

May God send angels to guard the door 

No, Love is not a fight 

but its something worth fighting for 

To some love is a word 

that they can fall into. 

But when they're falling out 

keeping that word is hard to do 

Love is a shelter 

in a raging storm 

Love is peace 

in the middle of a war 

And if we try to leave; 

May God send angels to guard the door 

No, Love is not a fight 

but its something worth fighting for 

Love will come to save us 

If we'll only call 

He will ask nothing from us 

but demand we give our all 

Love is a shelter 

in a raging storm 

Love is peace 

in the middle of a war 

And if we try to leave; 

May God send angels to guard the door 

No, Love is not a fight 

but its something worth fighting for. 

Cause I Will Fight For You 

Would You Fight For Me 

It's Worth Fighting For.

I absolutely LOVE this song. I watched Fireproof tonight. It is one of mine and Alex's top ranking movies. Yeah so maybe it was poorly produced, but it had one hell of a meaning behind it. I don't think that many people look at marriage that way these days. I don't think they see it as the vows portray marriage to be; "For better or worse.".."through the good times and bad".  It's not "yeah, I'm in this marriage when it's easy, or when it's convenient." You're in the marriage through the good times, the bad times, whether happy or sad. That's what it's all about, the journey that you two make together. That's what makes you stronger and that's what makes the love last forever. I feel like too many couples now look at it as 'oh if this doesn't work, we'll just get a divorce.' No, you don't just go get a divorce. It makes marriage look like such a nonchalant thing, something that doesn't have depth, meaning, love and sacrifice behind it. 

The movie takes every aspect and puts into perspective how important it is to a marriage. It's not the big things, it's the small things that hold it all together. It's putting your complete faith into someone and trusting them with your whole heart. It's giving a little and not expecting to get anything in return. It makes me look at myself and the kind of wife I've been and reminds me that I can always strive to do a better job at letting my husband know how much I appreciate all that he's done and doing those little things that let him know that he does mean the world to me and that this life wouldn't be much worth living if I wasn't doing the journey by his side. I can't wait until he is home again so that I can be the best wife that I can possibly be and to make up for the past seven months that we have missed out on being together. It's so soon I can almost taste it, almost there but not quite yet. It's such a tease, but I can't wait to feel that in my arms and know that we've done it and we're that much stronger for doing it. I'm so proud of us. 

Love is not a fight, but it's something worth fighting for<3

See you soon handsome.

Mrs. Truelove<3 

happiness..

That pretty much sums up my life right now, well, in a few weeks it will describe my life perfectly. But the past two days, although it has been a lot, I have loved more than anything getting our house ready and setting it up for Alex. Today, when I thought about it, knowing this would be the house he comes home to, this will be the house that we lay on the couch and watch television at night, this will be the house that we sit down at the table and eat dinner in together, it made me so undeniably happy. I never knew it was possible for one person to make you so happy, then he walked into my life and exceeded all expectations that I had. 


A girl I have met over this deployment messaged me today. She wanted to nominate me on some facebook group as the "most positive person". This is what she wrote in the nomination. "I would like to nominate Audrey Truelove. I've never met her in person but we have become friends through Facebook due to our husbands being in the same unit. I think she is most positive because i've never seen one negative post on her Facebook and she goes 3+ weeks at a time without hearing from her husband. I have been fortunate enough to hear from my husband at least twice a week and it use to be hard for me to go two days without a phone call then I met Audrey and she told me about how she didn't hear from her Hubby often and it opened my eyes and gave me strength To go days without hearing from him. As much as some of us wives complain i've never seen one complaint on her wall and she always post positive/inspiring quotes." Don't get me wrong, there are those days that I don't want to move because I miss my husband so badly it hurts. But there have also been those times where I get an overwhelming sense of calmness that runs throughout my body and I know it is my husband and his strength pushing me through the day, then I know everything is going to be okay. It is hard to be negative when you are more in love than you could ever imagine and when those phone calls are precious gifts that you would not trade for anything in the world. The memories that my husband and I have made since the day that we have met are what get me through the hard times; the times I don't want to get out of bed. It's knowing that with every waking moment, I am just that much closer to being in his arms again and to living out the life that we have both always dreamed of...together. I love my life, all of the obstacles have just made us that much stronger and make us appreciate the moments that we have together even more so than before, because they really are precious. 


As the saying goes "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." And that strength and courage is exactly what has got not only myself but my husband through this deployment.


I love you more than words could ever say, handsome. You are almost home, in the matter of weeks. I can't wait to hold you again and continue our future just the way it should be. I'll be seeing you. 


Mrs. Truelove<3

Valentine's Day..

Valentine's Day. Thousands of people celebrate, many hate it and some think it's entirely too played up. Me? I'm skipping it this year. No really, I've full on decided to skip it. Truth be told, I forgot about it this year. I "celebrated" Valentine's Day this year when I decorated hubby's box to send to him, that was me celebrating and sending all my love to him, that's good enough for me. This will be the second Valentine's day that we have missed in a row, I guess that's part of being in the military, huh? Today as I was making the 13 hour trip down to North Carolina, our new home, I realized how over done Valentine's day is. Maybe it's because my husband is half a world away, not with me on this special day, but then again..maybe it's not. Who am I kidding? That's exactly why I think it's over done, because my husband isn't with me. Here's the thing, I'm not saying this out of bitterness because my husband isn't here, like most people would think is the reason behind my opinion. No, that's not it at all. I'm saying it because why do you need ONE specific day to show how much you love your husband/wife/significant other. I would much rather have flowers on a random day just because than on the given  day. (Babe, if you're reading this, that doesn't mean Valentine's Day flowers are forbidden ;] )

Valentine's day is the day that you show each other how special you are, when you remember the reasons you fell in love and what makes you stay in love with that person. I am in awe of my husband, every day. Each day I find a new thing about him that makes me fall in love with him, over and over again. His smile, those big brown eyes, his huge heart of gold, his strength, how gorgeous and sexy he is, and the list could go on. The time we've spent apart has made me see how perfectly amazing those things are and has made me appreciate them to teh fullest, more than what most people will never understand.

There's one thing that's better than Valentine's day. And that is the first day your eyes lock and you feel that embrace, the warmth of your skin touching and the kiss that takes your breath away; you see, it's that first moment where you stand in front of the love of your life after seven months of being apart and the world stands still. You can't celebrate that every day and only real, true, genuine love gets to celebrate that...an amazing thing I like to call...homecoming<3

I can't wait for that moment, it will be here so shortly and I can't wait to feel complete again and to celebrate Valentine's day every day that we wake up. I love you handsome, hurry home to me. I'm so proud of you!

Mrs. Truelove<3

Anxiousness will be the death of me..

I think if I watch another homecoming video, I may pass out from an extreme anxiety attack. We use to sit in bed and watch homecoming videos every night before we went to bed. I'm not sure how he felt about them, but I know that I was aching inside. I was already longing for that moment, the moment where your eyes connect for the first time in 7 months, that first touch where it's like a wave of electricity going through your body. The first feel of that embrace, the one that you had longed for every night as you went to bed, knowing that even though you would wake up a day closer to it, it still wouldn't be there...YET.  I already longed for that feeling of completeness again, because no matter which way you look at it, half of my heart and soul really is in Afghanistan with him, he takes it wherever he goes. And with every new video I watch on youtube or every homecoming picture I see on facebook, I get more and more anxious to have my husband home with me again. I long for that feeling, even more, every single day. 

I'm a quote freak, I love quotes. I found one today that read: "Real love is when you go through the toughest storm and find yourself still holding hands when you come out." I would definitely say this has been the toughest storm that we have endured yet, but we are still trucking on hand in hand. That's how it will always be, you and me. I promised you forever, through the good and the bad; not just the happy but the sad. I have to say that I am so proud of us, I, of course, never doubted for a second that we could do it, but that moment when I jump into his arms and melt like jello will be the best feeling for many reasons. We can finally breathe a sigh of relief and say "we did it." WE...not you, not me, but WE. That's how it will be for the rest of our lives. I'm not sure what the rest of this life will throw at us, but I know we can conquer it together..hand in hand!

Almost done, see you soon handsome<3

Mrs. Truelove<3