If you would have told me five years ago that I would be a military wife, who has moved across the country and back four times, endured two deployments, had a child while my husband was at war and played mommy and daddy all by myself, I would have laughed in your face. You see, five years ago I had my life "planned out". And now that I sit back and think about it, I'm sure the man upstairs was looking down laughing at me because he had a completely different plan in mind and boy...am I glad.
Shortly after my senior year of high school, all my plans that I had made completely diminished. Little did I realize that would be the beginning of the rest of my life, that was the point that I learned that I needed to put my faith in God and know that he's got a bigger plan for me. If there is one thing I have learned being the wife of a man in the military, it is that things are totally and utterly out of your control. For someone who loves to plan the next step and be on top of the game, it's definitely a hard adjustment; you've just got to 'go with the flow'...easier said than done, I know.
However, because I have learned to 'Let go and Let God' I am in the best place that I've ever been in, in my entire life. I've been blessed with the most amazing husband. One who puts his heart and soul not only into our relationship, but into his job; a job that he willingly sacrifices so much of his every day life so that he can support our ever growing family. And for that, I cannot thank God enough. We have an amazing relationship, one that continues to grow every single day. I can put my faith and trust in him and know that he puts all of his into me. It's an awesome feeling to be able to do that and to have your best friend, your soulmate, your rock all wrapped up into one person. He has given me the best gift I could have ever been given...our son Abbott.
Abbott...where do I even begin. He is one of the reasons that my world turns. He has already taught me so much in the past nine weeks of his life than he could ever imagine. I would give anything if his daddy could be here to watch him grow, but while his daddy is out being a hero, mommy will make sure he watches him grow through every picture she can possibly snap. It has been a challenging journey not having my husband here for the birth of our first baby, as I know it is for him. It's another one of those situations in our journey through this life that I've had to let go and let God and know that he knows what he's doing and has a bigger purpose for it all. I know my husband is needed right now and to willingly go without complaint, makes me undeniably proud to call him my husband.
If I could write a letter to me, I would make sure to remind myself that it's okay to relax, enjoy every moment, live for today and dream about tomorrow. Life is too short to constantly worry, so hug a little harder, kiss a little longer, love a little better and know that the man upstairs has it all figured out.
Sometimes you've just got to learn to let go.......and let God<3
Until next time...
Mrs. Truelove
