I see you

I guess I should go ahead and apologize for the insane amount of  "mushiness" that comes with this blog. I absolutely love, hands down, no doubt about it, love mushy, lovey dovey things. Maybe it's because of the way my husband makes me feel; or maybe it's the way I feel about him; or possibly the way that I long for that feeling when he's gone for so many lonely nights. Whatever it is, I love it.


So I heard that angelic voice this morning. Of course, that's the most perfect way to start off your morning when you're 7000 miles away from the one person you want to wake up next to. It was nice to hear his voice, when I first answered I heard that smile in his voice..."heyy!" It melted my heart instantly. I wish I could put into words the happiness that man brings me even while he's 7000 miles away. Hearing him say "I love you baby" or "no you don't understand how much I miss you." makes all of the time that we have to spend apart worth every second.


It's pretty crazy how you can watch a movie or a television show and literally feel your insides hurting when you see a couple kiss, because you long so badly for that moment. I see you in those kisses. I see you in the empty spot lying beside me every morning when I wake up and every night when I toss and turn fighting to fall asleep. I see you in the sunrise and the sunset that I always loved to watch as I was wrapped in your arms. I see you in the ring upon my finger, the ring that I always touch just to feel a little closer to you. I see you in all of our photos on the wall, the ones that make this empty house feel a little more like a home. I see you at the empty spot when I'm eating supper. In the empty spaces between my fingers, that's where I see you, because that's where your fingers are meant to be. I see you in all of the quotes about love that I read, the ones about happiness too. Because with you, I know what true happiness is. I see you in the words truth, strength, courage, commitment, honor, HERO, because those are all the things that you stand for. 


I see you in all of these things, I see you in everything that surrounds me and I can feel you beside me through it all. You are my best friend. You are my strength and courage that has gotten me through this huge mountain that has been placed in front of us. I thank God for the gift of you every day and for the day that you will return to me and I will be able to see you, face to face again. I can't wait until that day. Until then, know that I am right here waiting for YOU just like I promised I would be. 


I see you in all of these things, but the one thing that I see you in the most...is me; because you've made me who I am today and you make me want to be a better me. For that, I am eternally grateful. 


I'll see you soon handsome. I love you, to the end of the Earth and back.

"You know how I know we're going to make it? Because I still wake up every morning and the first thing I want to do is see your face."                    - Gerry Kennedy; P.S. I love you